I’m in the battle! I feel like I’m losing too. Work has been rotten! I can’t think of anything nice to say about it….except that two of my own children are there. I love being connected to them. But, nothing else feels right! It’s starting to affect me in all aspects of my life.
I feel like I keep travelling the same circle of junk! I get stressed out, start thinking and feeling meanish and then start to feel guilty for being such a jerk of a person! I hate it! I’m generally a nice and patient person. But my current situation is beginning to overwhelm me.
Work sucks!
The position I have…..is tough! People all around me are floundering too. It’s not just me. Other’s are struggling to cope or make it out alive….just like me. I keep clinging to the end of school countdown, 16 more days! Sounds pretty do-able, huh? Until my alarm goes off in the morning and then I start to feel ill (and I’m not a call in sick kind of employee….but man, I want to every single day)!!
Misery!
I’m in serious prayer about what to do ABOUT MY FUTURE!! I don’t think I’m cut out for this position (I wasn’t hired for it in the first place….I was thrown in without a choice) but I HAVE A JOB!! I’m starting to rethink that oft repeated statement. It’s becoming more like…
I’m barely hanging on….
Lord, help me not to become the person I feel like everyday. Snarly and hard-hearted. I miss being a happy person. My family does too. Fill me with your goodness and mercy. I need it and so do those who have to be around me. I’m sorry for falling short. Amen.