I’ve been on edge today. I wish I could say that I’m a mature enough person to handle disappointment better than this. But I can’t! I’m just human and a flawed one at that. Last week the guidance office posted the list of scholarship recipient names for the world to see and guess who’s name wasn’t on the list? Yea, my sweetboy! It was a huge let down! I felt so sad for him. I knew he would be so bummed. I cried!
Since he was in middle school we’ve told him over and over that he had to work hard in school. He’s done that. He’s #24 out of 325 in his graduating class and his GPA is 11.3. That says something loud and clear if you ask me. So, I can’t help but wonder….how does that make sense? How can you make straight A’s all through your high school career and take no fluff classes ever and still not get a penny in reward? I sound so bitter. It’s a hard pill to swallow. It just hurts to see your kid hurt.
When we filled out all those scholarships we placed them in God’s hands. I even blogged about it. I totally meant it when I said we would trust Him either way. I believe that even more now. I know God has a plan for Gavin beyond any local scholarship monies. Some things in life aren’t supposed to come easy. Maybe this is just one of those things. So, while we are feeling let down….we still celebrate all that Gavin has accomplished during his high school years. His hard work does not go unnoticed by us.
Way to go Sweetboy! You have made us so proud!
To burn off my anxiety……I pushed mowed the worst yard in the neighborhood…IN FLIPFLOPS no doubt! Yea….I told you I was on edge! 🙂
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight” Prov. 3:5-6