Remember my jazzy attitude yesterday? Well, it went to pot by the time I went to bed last night. Lame, I know. I'm blaming it on all the wicked emotions that I've traveled through in the last 6-8 months. I've had ups and I've had downs. I think it's only fair that I get a little blue here & there.
I have what feels like the weight of the world on my shoulders.
See how life can be a bag of mixed emotions? All of what I'm feeling comes from a lack of organization. My life and all that goes along with it feel jumbled up. Who knew selling a house while working full-time and trying to commute long distance (hubby) could be so stressful? Especially after the summer we've had and all the additional boxes of stuff we had to bring home with us.
More clutter equals more anxiety.
I've been working on a TO DO list. It's exhausting just looking at it. I even tried to seperate the work out on two pages, big things & little things. Overwhelming! Maybe it's getting to me because of what we just had to do at my mom's house.
Stuff stacked everywhere makes me want to cry.
I told someone yesterday that I'd just like to pack a suitcase and leave. That may sound a little crazy but it represents how one step forward two steps back I feel.
Enough whining, I know. I can't get my summer back. I can't make it all happen in a weekend. I can't change the fact that we've collected junk and let it build up. I can't do anything but take it all ONE STEP AT A TIME!
So, pray for me. I need strength, patience, focus and TIME to work on my exhaustive TO DO LIST.
SELLING MY FAMILY'S HOUSE IS MY MAIN GOAL!
God,
Thank you for blessing me with such a beautiful house. Forgive me for not keeping it under control. Help me be of sound mind when making important decisions. And protect my family/spouse from disagreements and strife through the process.
Amen