He Needs Me

I've tried NOT to complain or fret over the fact that my hubby is a thousand miles away and isn't coming home for several more weeks.  I think I've done a jam up job of acting like everything is "normal" and okay!  But in my heart…….MY WORLD IS UPSIDE DOWN!

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I've tried everything to keep my brain occupied.  I've painted the master bedroom & the bathroom.

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I've managed to break something on the mower, just trying TO CRANK THE SUCKER!  I've successfully mowed, twice!  Which is a huge reminder that my hubby is gone because when he mows, it looks marvelous!

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Clearly, a C+ job!

I've shopped.  A lot.  As in, shopped like I'm trying to blow a vast family fortune!  Ahh, lucky for me.  I haven't bought…..like I have a vast family fortune! 

2014-07-26 12.53.29Tried on cute shoes.  Didn't buy.  Couldn't justify blowing $50 on a sweet shoe just because I was lonely.

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I went down to the pool one day, saw a young teen boy flip off a mom after he almost beat up her little boy.  After the situation calmed down, I found myself sick.  Sick to the point that I thought I was having some sort of diabetic spell or something.  I got on my bike to come home and THANK THE LORD it was all downhill because I couldn't even peddle my bike to make it home!

Once I got home, I fell on the couch and hung on for dear life….praying to God I didn't croak BECAUSE NO ONE WOULD FIND ME!  Sucks to be alone, y'all!

mindStill don't know what the heck was wrong with me.  Blood sugar?  Hypoglycemia?  Crazy?  Malnourished?  All of the above?  Sick with love?

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Done a little JOY RIDING in the Hageman's sweet G-class before it left Indiana for Texas.  Have I mentioned that I love dirt roads & cornfields?  It's my southern bloodline!

2014-07-13 20.04.55-1Little things, guys!

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I finally found barstools!  It's only taken me forever to stumble upon this great deal and right fit for our bar.  All 3, for $33 a piece!  BOOM!  I plan to paint them.

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I have been #1 dog entertainer, every. single. day.

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Sometimes, she gives me a break and takes a nap.

2014-07-23 18.37.39Other times, she just makes me feel guilty and I give in and take her out.  I've let her pull me on my bike but it is risky business.  I know my neighbors are watching for the sideshow action that we really are.

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Ally came to visit….. so we bought GiGi's cupcakes and ate them late at night like ain't no cupcake gonna matter at 11pm!

2014-07-29 09.15.15I've been stalked, slept on, stepped on and totally lavished with love and attention by this chick!

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If I would just put her in a baby carrier attached to my body…..she would be perfectly content!  She's trying to figure out a way to JUMP all the way over to the hottub in this photo!

I've done a ton of chilling.  I even learned to watch movies on my Amazon Prime freebie site.  Wow, it's cool!


I've gone to training for the upcoming school year so I'm all ready for school to start.  I even got a raise!!  Yea, subs….get raises!  Who knew?  I reminded my hubby that I am not just sitting around…..I am making bank!  Of course, he laughed.

I've had good days.

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A little makeup here & there.

I've had not so good days.

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Dang mower!

2014-07-22 18.11.13I've pridefully watched flowers bloom and fall off the stems.

2014-07-22 18.11.53I've counted and re-counted all the tomato's growing on our bushes.  Only the sad truth is, they will probably be ready to pick WHILE I'M GONE TO TEXAS!!!

I realize that this long work journey is NOT all about me.  Especially, when I get messages from my man that he's reached the point of no return.  His days are long & exhausting.  Days that seem like nothing is going right and everything is broken.  One job can't be done until another is handled and the people hired to come in and do certain services are stuck because something isn't ready.  His level of stress and frustration is clearly nothing like mine.

Afterall, I don't have anyone to really answer to and if I don't get something done during my day…..no one is going to care!  He has real life business to contend with and doing it all while being far from me is doubling his pressure.  So, when I'm feeling sorry for myself….and I have been doing a lot of that!  I'm trying to remind myself that HE NEEDS ME TOO!  He needs me to be satisfied & happy.  He needs me to be occupied and joyful.  He needs me to be encouraging and prayerful.  He needs me to support him from afar and to be grateful that he works hard for me and our family!

So, wives.  When you are tempted to think solely of yourself and your wants and needs…..remember, you have a husband that has all of the same and for the most part HIS ARE EVEN DOUBLE what yours are.  Focus on ways to be positive, encouraging and patient. 

be fresh

Be strong for him.

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