This move. This crazy up & down emotion-filled move. It's changing me. I'm turning into a person that is weak, easily broken and a basket case of crying. Really, I don't know how much longer I can keep up with it. Just when I think I'm good….something else sneaks up on me and slams me to the ground of emotions.
I think I'm starting to get it when people say how much they hate moving. I really hate moving! Even with all the exciting parts of starting new and getting a great new house….moving is probably one of life's biggest challenges. Throw in, my mother's illness & death…..all three of my children moving out around the same time and my hubby switching jobs!
I'm beyond NUT JOB status at this point and I'm wondering if I will ever recover.
Every part of our move was met with some sort of difficulty. We moved in terrible snow conditions, a horrible rain storm and with very little help. We were stretched so thin mentally & physically and on top of all that it COST US A SMALL FORTUNE to do all the danged work ourselves. As if all of that were not enough…..now we are the talk of the town for leaving a mess behind.
Only, we made arrangements for the mess to be taken care of.
May I insert a recommendation to anyone making a job transaction over Facebook. Don't do it! What we thought would be completely handled….was not even close to being handled. Therefore, leaving us open and vulnerable to reputation suicide for being trash leaving people. I'm sick. I'm embarrassed. I'm angry!
The way I see it….if you volunteer to do something, do it! I'm left feeling very resentful now and angry for trusting someone's word that they would clean up and haul away what was left. That was the deal. It was to be swept out after all the stuff was hauled away. That didn't happen. What did happen is that I read on Facebook how trashy I am and awful for leaving MY MESS for the new owners of my old house.
So, there you go. Emotion # 9,748 because I just can't seem to escape all the effects of moving and what it does to a person.
Will. I. Ever. Be. Normal. Again?
