Posts Tagged ‘heart condition’

Say It – No Don’t

Tuesday, May 14th, 2013

I have a way with words.  Sometimes my words are nice and other times not so much.  Like today.  My friend asked me a very simple question about a meeting and instead of just saying, "I can't go or I'm not going to be able to make it!".  I managed to open up my mouth and reveal a bitter spot in my heart.  She didn't deserve to hear why I wasn't going to the meeting but because I wasn't thinking with a pure heart, I told her anyway.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord"  Isaiah 55:8

Since coming home and pondering my conversation….I've thought about how foolish I must have looked to her.  It didn't really matter whether I attended the dumb meeting or not but how I shared my reasons why did matter.  I hate that I sounded so jerky.  I hate that I even bothered to voice a negative opinion because I missed a chance to let God bless me.  See, God doesn't need us to fight & fume over any slight we might feel from others.  He is big enough to handle that and more.  My taking the opportunity to whine about why I wasn't attending ruined any moral high road I was hoping to travel.

I'm just being honest.

I wish I could erase that whole conversation.  It wasn't an ugly confrontation or anything like that.  I just know… didn't honor God and it made me look pathetic.


I'm sorry for the condition of my heart.  It's not always up to par.  I'm mad at myself for spewing stupid words to my friend who loves me & You.  Thank you that she's the kind of friend who overlooks mistakes.