Posts Tagged ‘dirty heart’

Heart of Spam

Thursday, January 9th, 2014

computer dummyMy IT hubby gets frustrated with me over most things techy.  I usually begin any conversation with him that involves computer trouble with, "Don't get mad, but…" and inevitably we end up RAISING OUR VOICES in fellowship!

One of the most annoyed issues he seems to have with me is over my email.  [Like I can control all that comes into it.]  He's changed my email address to ward off all the piles of spam and after 2 years or more of t y p i n g out the world's longest email address, it's just as full of spam as the last awesome email addy!  I posted a new year's wish out to all the spammers last week on Facebook (cause, I'm real mature like that)!

~~To those who spam your email – may the year 2014 be the year you catch all manner of cooties & forget your passwords & find Jesus!

And….I meant it!  Spammers are trouble!  They pop into your life unexpectedly and most times unknowingly and make a huge mess.  They pile up and overtake all your space (peace) and distract you from all that's important in your life (email).

Much like a heart full of sin.

I hadn't realized just how closely the two were connected until I had a few minutes to feel sorry for myself today.  During my little cry….in my defense, I've had a really big year of change.  I started thinking of all the piles of spam in my email and realized that I just ignore ALL EMAIL now because of it's overwhelming presence in my reader.  I tend to do that same thing when there's something that doesn't belong there (in my heart) too.

My wish to clear out all the spam of the world — reminds me of all the junk in my heart that needs to go!

Mean thoughts.  Greed.  Jealousy.  Anger.  Lack of self-control.  Discord.  Selfishness.  Hot temper.  Bad words.  Unpleasing spirit.  Laziness.  Disagreeable attitude.  Bossy.  Harshness.  Pettyness. 

and that's just a glimpse at what's in there.

I'm so grateful that God doesn't get angry every time I say to him, "Don't get mad Lord…but I have this junk in my heart!".  Every time, without even the slightest hesitation God wipes it clean again….my heart of spam.

What does God want you to swipe clean today?  My prayer is that it's nothing more than some long list of spam in your email folders.  If not, get busy wiping out what blocks you from real peace and true joy – right now!


Say It – No Don’t

Tuesday, May 14th, 2013

I have a way with words.  Sometimes my words are nice and other times not so much.  Like today.  My friend asked me a very simple question about a meeting and instead of just saying, "I can't go or I'm not going to be able to make it!".  I managed to open up my mouth and reveal a bitter spot in my heart.  She didn't deserve to hear why I wasn't going to the meeting but because I wasn't thinking with a pure heart, I told her anyway.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord"  Isaiah 55:8

Since coming home and pondering my conversation….I've thought about how foolish I must have looked to her.  It didn't really matter whether I attended the dumb meeting or not but how I shared my reasons why did matter.  I hate that I sounded so jerky.  I hate that I even bothered to voice a negative opinion because I missed a chance to let God bless me.  See, God doesn't need us to fight & fume over any slight we might feel from others.  He is big enough to handle that and more.  My taking the opportunity to whine about why I wasn't attending ruined any moral high road I was hoping to travel.

I'm just being honest.

I wish I could erase that whole conversation.  It wasn't an ugly confrontation or anything like that.  I just know… didn't honor God and it made me look pathetic.


I'm sorry for the condition of my heart.  It's not always up to par.  I'm mad at myself for spewing stupid words to my friend who loves me & You.  Thank you that she's the kind of friend who overlooks mistakes.


Paint Me New

Friday, March 23rd, 2012

I've made big spring break plans.  It's been a long time coming.  I'm going to paint my dingy walls & ceiling.  The problem with that is once you start, you can't just quit.  As I walked around surveying the areas that needed a spruce up, I realized that the job was growing with every room.  How can everything need to be painted again, already?  It's only been a few years…

Which makes me think about my heart.  I know there are dirty spots and dings in the wall of my fluffy little secret place and that God wants me to take care of them just as much as my physical home.  But how often do I push that to the side in order to just get through a day.  Or cover up something that's ugly so I don't have to look at it or think about it?

The answer is, often.

I'm human.  I sin.  I think mean thoughts and sometimes….I spew them outloud.  I feel normal emotions.  I get jealous, feel envy and I even blow off the handle!  But those aren't my only weaknesses.  I have sinned and do sin (like everybody else) on a daily basis.  I KNOW THAT I NEED JESUS, every single day.

My heart is His but my flesh tries to rule it most days.  I'm sure many of you can relate.  Everyday is a battle and it's up to us to fight the good fight with the armor of God.  So my question to me today is this—>  Am I equipping myself adequately with God's word to face all that life is going to throw at me?

P-Prayer.  Am I prayed up?  Have I spent time talking to and listening to God?

A-Ask for forgiveness.  Have I confessed the sin hidden in my heart?

I-Imagine.  Am I imagining my eternity with Christ?  Or do I forget all about it?

N-Need.  Do I acknowledge my need for a Savior?  Am I relying on him?

T-Tell.  Am I telling other's about my Lord and His love for them and me?

As you can see, it's time to get busy.  My heart, like my house needs a spruce up.  What about yours?