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Friday, July 29th, 2011

I have a morning ritual. I let my dog out, feed my cat and read (in)courage’s blog post for the day. It’s there that I’m sure to run smack-dab into Jesus and His encouragement for me. Before you flip out and say, “What, you’re relying on strangers for your spiritual nourishment?”. Don’t, these ladies write for HIM and if you sneak over and read—you’ll see for yourself. God is working through each writer at (in)courage and I’m blessed because of it.

Today, Lisa-Jo has thrown down the gauntlet and challenged readers to write from their heart on the topic Still. No deep thinking or pondering, just fingers to the keys writing for 5 minutes straight. So, here goes…

STILL

I’ve always been a right-now-gal! Recently, my husband said that he knows once I “get something in my head” I can’t move on until I do, buy, get, see, have it conquered! I wished immediately that it was a compliment but I knew it wasn’t. He was simply trying to reign me in from a wild goose chase that I was zipping towards.

I want it, now. I’m fast at everything. I cook, clean, drive and love at record speeds. Wasting time just bugs me. If I’m honest and I will be….I have a lot in common with Sarah in the Bible. She must have been a right-now-gal too. I mean who comes up with an idea of such desperation to “help” God by using her handmaiden to bear children with her husband? Looking back (I’ve not used another for children) but I have ran fast ahead of my Lord and tried to “handle” things in my own way. It stings to even admit it. Again, like Sarah….I have learned the hard way that things do work out.

Psalm 25:4-5 “Show me Your ways, O Lord; teach me Your paths. Lead me in Your truth and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation; on You I wait all the day.”

Today, I’m going to be a WAIT AND BE STILL right now gal. I can do that because Jehovah God is in control of my destiny. And he is in yours too.

Whew. That was hard, ya’ll! Thanks for visiting if you’re here from (in)courage.

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God-sized dreams?

Sunday, January 3rd, 2010

Dare I dream that big? I’ve admitted before that I’m a dreamer….but God-sized? For my little human mind….that’s dreaming in the BIGTIME! But truthfully……I’m all over it! I guess that’s the way it is with us dreamers. Nothing can stop us! We dream and I believe….HE can handle it! Over at (In)courage’s blog, Holley has thrown down the challenge….by asking this very important question. What are your God-sized dreams?

This new year….I dream to:

SERVE CHRIST. Whether anyone around me thinks I’m worthy of a ministry position or not. My family and I have not “fallen” from grace. We simply left full-time pastoral ministry (a decision that was painful to do). So many times over the last 2 years I’ve felt as if I had done something terribly wrong. I know that isn’t true and so does God! I’m excited about where it is He wants to use me. I know….He’s not finished with me!

SERVE MY FAMILY. I’ve been so busy just trying to survive. My emotional well being hasn’t weathered the discouragement like I’d hoped. My family deserves a better me. One that has the confidence and knowledge that my Savior is in control! Oh I’ve believed those things…but a broken heart can play some dirty tricks on you if you’re not careful. I want to live outloud to my husband and kids. They’ve missed me and so have I!

SERVE OTHERS. I miss ministering. I haven’t completely walked away from that….it’s too engrained in my blood. It’s who I am. I have a passion for leading someone to a right relationship with Christ and those in their lives. I understand so many issues that people have because I’m just like them, a sinner! I know that God has placed me in the right spot….and that all I have to do is follow His lead. Use me, Lord!   I’m willing!

How do I plan to execute this dream? By first cleaning out the junk that’s built up in my heart. Life’s little stabs can add up and cover you with defeat. I need a good clean out (much like my garage and storage room do). It may even be an extreme makeover kind that I need. I can’t get anything accomplished living in the stinky muck that I look back and see I’ve been smack in the middle of.

Create in me a clean heart O God, and renew a right spirit within me.  Ps.51:10

My personal study time has been depressing! Why? I don’t know. Lack of ambition maybe? I can’t really say. But that has to change (it already has)! I love to study…..and I’m not ignoring that privilege any longer! My growth has been stunted because of my actions…..but I’m back! Lord, teach me your ways…..I love your precepts!

Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.  2 Tim. 2:15

Slowing down and focusing on what’s important instead of just merely existing. My kids are all growing up and leaving the nest. One is already gone (yes he’s just at college)….but he’s practically on his way out for good. I don’t want to waste anymore teaching/discipling time that I have with them. There’s still much to say…..much to learn….much to experience. I can’t do that if I’m exhausted and zipping through life in a stressed out hurry. I plan to do more speaking the truth into my kids lives. It is my job afterall!

You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise.  Deut. 6:7

I have work to do. What about you? Do you have any God-sized dreams? If so….don’t be afraid to dream them and seek out God’s help to attain them. If there’s anything I’ve learned in the last few years it’s this…..don’t sit and wait for something to happen to you. GO GET IT!

 

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