Desperation can set us up for fuzzy thinking. I know this to be true because I've rationalized some crazy things in my head that certainly DID NOT make good sense after the fact. Perhaps you know what I mean.
When I moved to my new house in December, I had big plans of staying home and being happy forever & ever. Only, I haven't been exactly happy. I've been lonely, I've been stuck (thank you winter from H E double hockey sticks), I've felt isolated, I've lost my confidence, I've never gone so long without make-up and I've placed an unnecessary amount of PLEASE ME with social interaction pressure on my hubby.
He pretends it doesn't bother him.
I thought I'd play it smart back in December and apply online to substitute teach at the schools nearby. I applied on December 31st to be exact. The process was extensive and took a good hour out of my day to complete. I've been waiting to hear back all this time. No news. After talking to my hubby about the strange process, I decided to call and track down the person responsible for hiring subs and see what the hold up was. I found her. She goes into this huge deal about getting SO MANY APPLICATIONS that she just has to weed through them to FIND QUALIFIED applicants. To which I replied — "I know I'm qualified for the job. Now, tell me….how do I get approved to sub at your schools?". She told me that my references had not filled out my reference forms and that she would re-send them and then look over my application and call me for an interview.
REALLY? Wow. I couldn't help but feel this process was a drag on series of hoops and that obviously……they DO NOT NEED SUBS bad enough. So I asked her just that. I know how hard it is to find subs. Most schools have difficulty finding qualified and good subs that they can rely on. I know this because I've been used to death in the past simply because I could do what they needed me to do and everyone requested me. I asked her about any open positions and she told me of several. I thanked her and hung up.
Five minutes……maybe, the high school principal called me with a JOB OFFER!!!
I'm not going to go into details but I do want to ask for your prayers. I don't want to take the WRONG JOB for the WRONG REASONS. I feel working would help me get out of my funk but I don't want to do a job that I hate all because of my loneliness. I love making my own money and I can't even describe the happy I feel just thinking of making some friends. But, I don't want to struggle at a job that is out of my comfort zone.
So, pray for me. Pray that I would be smart and think through the pros and cons of the particular job I am interviewing for AT 12:40 TODAY!!! I don't need to work but I think I'd like to get my foot in the door.
Oh…and guess who sent me an interview email a few hours later?
Yes, the sub list lady!!! 😉
