Archive for February, 2012

Oh My Aching Back

Tuesday, February 21st, 2012

Once again I was up & down all night. Two nights in a row!  Last year I blogged about a pinched nerve in my back. I wandered around aimlessly for a week with some of the worst pain ever. Finally, the pain was so bad that my principal had to help me to the parking lot where my hubby had pulled up to get me.

Away we went to the doctor, who lovingly prescribed truth serum and pain medication so I could breathe and pull up my own pants again.

So the news today is I'm down in the back …. again!

Pray for me…I don't want to share how I really feel by way of good drugs. I'd rather be like everyone else and hide it! Hehe

I Make Plans

Monday, February 20th, 2012

I'm a sucker for a good long weekend.  I had big plans to enjoy this one but somehow fell into the pit of DON'T COUNT YOUR CHICKENS BEFORE THEY HATCH lady!  When I came home to chaos on Friday, I knew….dun dun dun, home would not be the haven I had dreamt of all week.  
 

After verbally wounding all the people I love, including the dogs….I crawled up on my bed for a retreat nap cry escape rest and prayed for God to help me face all the attacks satan was throwing my way.  Then, I called my husband and confessed my meanness to him and begged him to come home and help me.

Before they killed me and hid my body.

No, I wasn't PMS'n either.  Trouble was just knocking on my door and I was caught unaware and answered it.  Idiot!  I did mention it was FRIDAY?  I love Friday's.  Just not this one.

The new puppy, it's up and down with the potty training.  My house smelled terrible and the laundry was piled high because of cleaning up the "accidents".  Not a good thing to come home to.  I work hard all week, I didn't want a puppy and I don't want to come home to work cleaning up after one.  Would you?

While I'm crying sulking praying on my bed, I hear my son yell, "Oh no, she peed on my iPad!".  Then I hear him stomping around up and down the stairs obviously taking his bedding to the laundry room and cleaning up the mess.  I can only assume that his new 64g iPad 2 is ok, since he isn't in my room having a total meltdown.  So, I let him handle his problem.

Until I hear the scariest screaming banging noise I've ever heard.  I jumped straight out of bed and ran searching for the source only to smell stinky smoke coming from my laundry room.  NOT THE LAUNDRY ROOM!!!  I cannot believe my eyes when I walk up to my washing machine and see that  E V E R Y blanket, cover, sheet and pillow case off of his king sized bed is in my washer!  It's poking out of the top (just like a scene from a Lucy & Ethel shenanigan) except it's not funny at all.  The washer is dead and my 21 year old son is the killer!

I have to walk away.

All of this kickstarted the "fun" weekend of searching everywhere for a belt (hoping that was all it needed) which NO ONE carried.  Why did I stop at 3 children?  I'll never know.  Laziness, maybe?  Remember all the smelly laundry?  Yea, it was now moved to the living room because hubby had to pull out the washing machine to work on it and needed to clear out the floor space.  Note:  House messy, smelly & cluttered!

After driving all over southern Indiana and biting my tongue at all the sales people who informed us they do not sell parts only new appliances–we ended up at a farm store that sold belts (for tractors and such).  We were desperate and after measuring them all against our washer belt decided to try it for $8.99.  Otherwise, we could order one and wait the week out for it to arrive.  Uhh, trying it!

By that evening, the tractor belt was on my old Maytag washer which now has a permanent screamy screech when it spins and can only handle baby loads.  Thanks hubby!  According to him, the damage is beyond the belt (a bearing, maybe) and it's only a temporary fix.  We need a new washer!  πŸ™

I spent all of Sunday washing the piles of gross wet laundry.  But I wasn't complaining.  Downton Abbey (my favorite show) was coming on at 9pm and not only was it the season finale…..I didn't have to get up for school this morning!  Weeeeeehawwww!  

I was almost caught up with all the laundry…

Until 1am when Ally came into my room flipping out because her dog was sick all over her bed.  By morning, she had barfed on everything repeatedly and even managed to hit the staircase.

Awesome.

Guess what I'm doing on my first President's Day off in 10 years?

 

"Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom." Ps. 90:12

 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Jer. 29:11

 

I Bought A Book

Friday, February 17th, 2012

My friend (she's a librarian) and I both have Kindle's.  Each of us love books but hate paying BIG DOLLARS to put them on our e-reader.  So, often we share about our sneaky finds that are either cheap or free.  Free being the most special, ya know?  If it's something really important, I'll pay for it otherwise I wait or search it out in a giveaway or the online Library system.  

Every once in a while I luck up and find a good one.

This past week I purchased the new hot-off-the-press book about JFK and the mistress who had an 18 month affair with him.  I wasn't sure if this was something I could enjoy especially after paying full price for it.  Yea, I'm that cheap!  I've always been intrigued by President Kennedy.  His life, his story & his tragic death all fascinate me.  I'm not sure why (we're on opposing parties, politically) other than the history of it all.  No one, democrat or republican deserve to be assassinated for the position they hold.

 

This story isn't about his death.  It's about a girl who was raised by a good family, educated at a prestigious prep school and given an exciting opportunity to intern at THE WHITE HOUSE during her summer before college.  But things would take a serious turn.  As a mother, reading it was heartbreaking!  As a woman, I felt humiliated for her.  Even though she doesn't try to paint the President in a bad way…it's hard not to judge him by his actions.

I devoured the book.  The author kept me glued to every page.  I admire her for the courage to write such a revealing (and not in a flattering way) book.  I can't think of too many women that would want the world to know the secrets that this lady held onto for a lifetime.  I wish more young people could see the devastation of promiscuity that she so openly shares in her story.  She recognized the effects of it in her failed marriage.

Profound news, people.  Don't give yourself away UNLESS IT'S YOUR SPOUSE!

I totally recommend the book.  If you're looking for a peak into Camelot and ready to have your eyes opened to some painful truths.  Get it!

Once Upon A Secret by Mimi Alford

 

Why I Won’t Read MckMama Anymore

Thursday, February 16th, 2012

I've been blogging since 2008 and one of the first blogs I frequented was MckMama's.  She was so inviting and interesting.  Her photography was dazzling and her kids, beautiful.  I loved clicking over and reading her cute posts about her Many Small Children and her handsome MckDaddy.  She seemed to have similar values as me and her willingness to talk about her faith just made me feel even more comfortable reading her blog.  She also spoke openly about what she struggled with (her marriage) and I thought by doing that she was being a genuine person who faced issues….you know, just like everybody else.

Then, her baby Stellan became the focus.  He was diagnosed with a congenital heart defect SVT during pregnancy.  So, I followed along her journey (which was very emotional and scary) and prayed for her and baby Stellan.  It was a frightening experience and as a reader, I could only imagine what she and her family were going through.  It was all over the blogosphere and this lady had the followers/readers tuning in to share in their fight for a healthy baby.  I continued reading throughout the birth and touch-n-go health issues he battled.

Everything seemed legit.

Little by little, I noticed as I read her blog…..tragic things were always happening to them.  Not just the sick baby (and please know, I'm a compassionate person), there were financial problems, foreclosure of a home, job issues (MckDaddy's), vehicle problems, marital fusses, counseling & reconciling, illness (her & Stellan), another baby (surprise), strange homeschooling posts, Compassion trips, Focus on The Family interview, political posts,  an entire summer of traveling the USA in a camper/motorhome, trips for photoshoots, more money problems, moving to a new house (and honestly, the moves didn't look shabby), purchasing of farm animals for their HEALTHY eating habits, bakoodles of pets & births of more, furniture shopping, parties at fancy antique furniture places, car wrecks, more hospitalizations…

The list goes on and on…

I totally lost interest and I'll tell you why….it sounded bonkers!  Every bit of her life sounded crazy!  Her posts were filled with beautiful pictures of her kids, always impeccably dressed in the cutest style of clothes.  As a mom, I've raised 3 babies and money was  T I G H T in order for me to stay home.  I found myself jealous of her ability to "be broke" and yet live such a lavish (the pictures certainly made it look as if, anyway) lifestyle.  She was in the upper crust of blogger celebs, yet she had piles of problems.  I couldn't keep up.

So, I bailed.  Call me unfaithful.  It's ok.  I just couldn't keep up with all the issues and the blessings too.  It just didn't seem to match up.

[Let me insert here:  I DO NOT KNOW Jennifer personally.  So my opinion is strictly based on what I've read over the years on her blog]

Every once in a while I'd hop over to see the latest happenings.  It still appeared that havoc and chaos were the name of the game and blessings & curses continued to rain down on the MckFamily.  Currently, the issues are serious marriage problems.  The posts are vague and often misleading (because, who knows THE TRUTH about what's going on?) and filled with arguing commenters posting on every little word she writes.  I can't even begin to describe how confusing and embarrassing all of it is.  It's terrible!  For her, her husband & her many small children.

I don't know what is really happening and I'm not sure if it's any of our business.  I know she makes money with her blog and she's been the target of nay-sayyers on the internet.  I just can't understand her thinking on tantilizing her readers with just enough information to make them feel awful for her and her many small children (that is how she likes to refer to them).  Why is she sharing such sad & personal stuff?  Why is she not protecting her relationship with her husband or possible ex-husband?  WHAT IS HER MOTIVE?  If it's for encouragement and support, then be honest with your readers.  Stop playing games and posting little inuendo's of your problems!

And for goodness sake, BE COMPLETELY HONEST with yourself.

I'm moving on.  I can't read the MckMama drama anymore.  I feel dupped because something just isn't right.  If I were experiencing the issues that she keeps posting…..I would not be airing it out for throngs of people to fuss, argue & criticize on Facebook and my blog.

So, I'll end with this….  Am I misunderstanding all of it?  Or is she strategically doing every bit of this for MONEY?  Either way, MckMama….you need to come clean!

 

People Are Petting Me

Wednesday, February 15th, 2012

I have the sweetest girl.  She speaks with the GIFTS love language.  She loves to go all out and bless the people she loves.  She thinks of each person and customizes her love to their personality.  {She'll make a great Mama someday} 

So I'm wondering if I should be concerned….

Is this how she sees me?  πŸ™‚  I know I've been a little aggressive as a mom (somebody's gotta be the heavy) but do you think she picked this vest for the "fashion" value or the WILD ANIMAL MOTHER thinking?

Either way, I don't care!  I love it!  She has great taste and knows just how to bless her mama!  The only problem?  Everyone keeps petting me like a kitty!

 

Meowwww!

 

Thank you Ally!  You're the sweetest little Valentine a mother could wish for.  I love your fun style and giving heart.

 

 Don't you see that children are God's best gift? 

      the fruit of the womb his generous legacy? 

   Like a warrior's fistful of arrows 

      are the children of a vigorous youth. 

   Oh, how blessed are you parents, 

      with your quivers full of children! 

   Your enemies don't stand a chance against you; 

      you'll sweep them right off your doorstep.  

Psalm 127:3-5 (The Message)

Snow But No

Tuesday, February 14th, 2012

I woke up as usual this morning, tired and achy.  That's normal for a gal with Fibromyalgia.  The entire winter season has pretty much been a bust, so when I saw the snow covered gound outside….I was hopeful for a school delay. 

Not a chance, dude!

Oh well, I'm not complaining.  No make-up days means WE GET OUT OF SCHOOL ON TIME for the first time in a long time.  Winning!

 

Since it's Valentine's Day it's only appropriate to tell the world who I love…

My hubby.  He is and always will be my true love.  I appreciate all that he does for me and for our kids.  He works hard and still has time to do the many strange & time consuming requests we have for him.  Thank you babe, for working until after 10pm last night working on my car.  Hopefully everything works out and you finish it tonight.  πŸ˜‰

My son.  He has the greatest outlook on life.  He teaches me everyday to look at people & situations with a positive attitude.  He knows how to find joy in every situation.  He's lovable & loving!  He's also been a lifesaver this last year in all our running around needs.  Thanks son!

My middle daughter.  She knows how to make me feel special.  She loves to do sweet things for other's and will work tirelessly to make someone feel her love.  I love her hugs and I never get tired of hearing her ask me, "Did you miss me, Mom..when I was gone?". 

My baby girl.  She is a tornado of love.  She's content to be with me (even when her peers are out living it up) and she's shown some great maturity in the last few months regarding boundaries in her life.  I admire her and I love that God let me be a part of molding her values.  She's so easy to love.

My family, friends, and co-workers too.  I feel blessed to have the wonderful people around me in my life.  I know I can count on each of them if I ever need them.  My prayer is that I'm a blessing to them as well. 

Who do you love?

"Since God loved us that much, we surely ought to love each other.”

~ 1 John 4:11