Queenies Little Kingdom

My sweetboy took his last final today.  His first year away at college went fairly well (for both of us).  Last year at this time, I was beginning to feel pretty anxious for what was ahead.  The unknown!  I couldn’t imagine him not being in my house and under my constant care.  He had always been with me…

I was having a conversation with my 17 year old daughter today.  She pointed out how I treat her differently than her brother (he’s older).  In her opinion, I don’t hold him to the same fire as her (it always looks like that to teens).  It feels like he gets away with murder (uhh yea right…ask him).

It’s hard being a mom!   🙂

I wanted to defend myself.  It seems that’s all I do in this current stage of my life.  But then I realized, that’s how she sees things.  She’s not a mom.  She doesn’t have pieces of her heart growing up and moving out of her nest yet.  Someday, she’ll understand so much of what she sees as unfairness now.  I’ve been in her shoes.

It’s hard being a teenager!   🙂

I’m feeling pretty happy right now.  By the time I get home from school….my grown up son will be home!  He’ll drag in tons of junk (we moved most of his stuff home at the beginning of the week).  Then, I’ll spend the weekend trying to put away and wash his smelly stuff.  Yes, I’ll make him help!  But what I’ll be feeling….is ahhhh, he’s back!

I’ll sleep peacefully, once again!  Thank you, Lord.

Me + all my chicks in the nest = YAY!!

I really want to blog! Seriously! I want to be able to SIT DOWN and write out some deep thoughts. I have so much to say and I even had my courage up tonight to really say some stuff that I’ve been holding back on.

I was feeling frisky! Or is it free? Either way, I was planning on letting it spill out on my blog post! But, then I had a kid that needed help with an essay for English. Yea, total buzz kill! For sure! Instead of sharing my heart of heart feelings…..I helped come up with biblical comparisons for the novel Lord of the Flies.

{Um, hello…..creepy sad story!!}

So, it’s settled. I go to bed and sleep with the angels. I can’t be up any later pounding on the keys of my pink pal. The Holy Spirit has interrupted and sidetracked me to other things. Things that I clearly needed to do more. Thank you, Lord!

Maybe soon I’ll get my courage up and write what’s going on in my wild heart! It may take some time…..I’m still grappling with how to just say it!
Until then, I’ll rest in knowing God has a plan and a time for everything! Including blog posts!

The theme for prom….was not coincidental! The evening really was a night of enchantment! Everyone buzzing with excitement and dressed in their most beautiful attire. It proved to be an event to remember!

For our community, we were under rainy weather watch. Believe it or not, the entire day went by minus the predicted storms. As we were driving home at 2:30am (from after prom) rain drops finally began to fall! {thank you, Lord}

Here’s the evening in pictures. Remember to see the whole photo, just click on it! 🙂

It appears….everyone had fun! Even the prom slaves! 🙂
What a great way to end junior/freshman year, right girls? 21 more days!!! Woohoo!

Lately, I’ve been a little grumpy!  Maybe grumpy isn’t really the word…..anxious or stressed might fit better.  I’m snappy and sharp!  I respond to the simplest things in a harsh tone.  My kids are starting to make those faces that I used to make when my mom was being mean.  I get it!  I’m not being the kind of mom they really deserve.

I’m becoming my mother!

Now, as I look back at my teen years….I can’t help but come to some much wiser conclusions to what my mother’s problem could have been.  Life is stressful and teenagers are difficult to raise!  I’m not blaming my behavior off on any of my kids (I own it, people)…..but lack of cooperation from them can really set off an already ticking time bomb.  I can only imagine what “stuff” was hanging over my mom’s life.  Things happen that rob us of our peace and sometimes our joy!

I realize that nearing the end of school makes for some high stress days.  But I just can’t get over how intense they seem to be the older I get.  The students and staff alike are all buzzing with the “long year blues”.  I have a bad case myself.  I CANNOT wait for June 2nd!  I need a break!

In the meantime, I have to get a grip!  My family and students need me to take a chill pill.  It’s as if I’m stuck in a perpetual PMS warp.  I want out!  Help!

Lord,

You know me.  I’m not a grouch by nature.  I like happy.  I like fun.  I like my life.  But it seems like I’m spinning on a wheel of frustration.  Everything is overwhelming me.  Help me focus and relax.  Give me a spirit of peace and renew my heart-a-tude!  I need you…..every hour!

Amen.

PS-I need to call my mom and tell her how much I love her!    🙂

It’s official!  All three of my teenagers have been selected to serve as Prom Pages at our high school.  This is quite an honor!  Every single year, freshman students cross their fingers and hope that they are chosen to serve as mere slaves at the junior prom.  It’s the only way…..they will see Prom until it’s their turn to go.  So to call it exciting….is an understatement!

Gavin was the first in our family to serve (duh, he is the oldest!).    Each is nominated by students from the junior class and then put on a list where EVERYONE gets a chance to vote on the list of students.  It’s a cool process!  One that really says something about each student nominated.  They are peer chosen and every year….it’s a great group of kids.

When Ally was chosen, Gavin was a junior.  Now it’s Ally that’s a junior and Gates is the freshman.  We’ve just got ourselves a tradition!  Which is really cool because I always work at prom….so I get to enjoy the night with my kids!  Yay!  Now, prom is just 4 days away and the excitement is contagious.  The entire school is buzzing!  I can’t wait to post pictures of Ally in her dress and Gates in her page clothes!

2010  JCHS  Freshman Prom Pages

Gates is front row/white jeans